LOve Not hATreD

2012-02-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

Single Awareness Day

2012-02-08T01:10:00.001+08:00

Hey people ! Pictures have to appear below because i'm blogging with my phone ! :/ anyways , LONG TIME NO SEE ! I know you'll missed me. And yes i've received complains from several people of my blog being so dead so i'm updating now for your enjoyment ! ( i'm sneezing ):< who is missing me huhhhh )

Either ways , CHINESE NEW YEAR IS OVER ): boohoo. Just when i had gotten into the mood. I still have several new clothes not wore yet cause i have no occasion to flaunt them in ): boohoo. But loads of parties at my house which practically kept me reallll busy for many days. Like 除夕夜 when we all had 天圆饭 which was i guess steamboat ! (: people came to my house as usual. Second day was filled with angbaos like the first day and i was busy yet again. 拜年 with people and exchanging oranges were enough to keep me tied up while replenishing food with my 11 year old cousin clinging on to me and hitting my bitt >: irritates me so much yaknow. Also didn't go to any friends house ): depressing. But at least i ate loads of goodies and sweets ! (: can earn some money and save up !

Though on the second, bekah had invited me to watch a movie with them but i was too tied up that i wasn't able to make it ! They even went to xuan li's house )): should come my house mah. And though like many parents gave their child a totally of like at least $28 per parent, i'm contented to receive $28 in total from both parents. At least i'm blessed to be in this family with them by my side yaknow (: if my siblings had no complains then why should i ? They survived this for 5 and 6 years more than i did so i should just live with it (: our family may be strict like at the age of 21 there is no more pocket money but i think it'll really shape us up to be able to overcome any obstacles in the near future like my upcoming o levels. Distractions had to perish !

Oh well. And valentines day is coming up people ! If you haven't confessed, do it now and prove your love (: make sure the other party is able to feel the sincerity shining off you and accept you for who you are ! If you are getting confessed to, just smile and thank the person graciously ! I'm doing valentines day cards and probably like a small thing but i feel that i don't have enough time to complete everything. ): so rushed ! But if i'm able to express my love through this then why not yaknow (: ( I LOVE YOU ) if you know who you are. Hehe. I'm gna get things done asap. Not guaranteed to be of A1 and a beautiful standard cause my art sucks and my writing sucks (; probably gna get so small gift to go along with the card. But i just don't know what to give. A hug ?? (: but i don't think zongyou and mun pin will hug me ): too discreet already. Guys... What to do. Somemore is not co day so i'm not able to like do it properly ): and i'm lazy to run everywhere to give the cards. Omg. SO 麻烦.

SHALL THINK THROUGH AGAIN :/

Anyways (: My week is coming up. COMMON TEST WEEK ! ): ughhh the terror/horror/disdain/fear of the freakiing tests ): first is already literature on friday ! Ohmyholymamapapaballz ! ); need to study like 5 chapters ? Good thing tjat characterization is rather complete ! Prays that Joseph Strorm will be able to appear like magic ! However no spottin is ever accurate so yeah ._. o well 2nd test is SS ( deterrence and diplomacy ) which i have no idea what the fuck that is and following with history which is WW2 and facist japan !! Omh. Are they trying to kill us wuth memory work )): heng friday no physics for biology students ! ;D wish you'll the best though !

ANYWAYS I NEED SLEEP. FREAKING 1:16 AM IN THE MORNING. HOPE ITS LONG ENOUGH (: GOODNIGHT

PEACEOUT.

2012-02-08T00:48:00.001+08:00

IM GNA UPDATE IN ANOTHER POST (:

2012-02-05T23:44:00.001+08:00

I love you.

2012-02-04T23:28:00.001+08:00

Valentines day is coming up people (: What are your plans ?

2012-02-03T22:36:00.001+08:00

OUT TODAY (:

2012-02-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

I told you. Didn't i ?

2012-01-31T01:24:00.003+08:00

Just hope that you'll really be here for me. Moral support.

Just spilled everything to Gracia in just an hour and we had so much fun talking through whatsapp while i did my literature essay and she did her emaths. Well well its been so long since i did a proper update huh ? I have been cheat blogging :D But hey, at least i had 3 minutes or so of your time just reading the wonderful pictures of watching the videos (: I love the songs like seriously. Those talented youtubers really makes you jealous of them huh.

this is Sam Tsui (:

Anyways, i think school has been well up till now. Except for differentiation because its very complicated. Need time to catch up yeahhhh .__. But i think the homework load is really manageable but its just that i need more sleep. Because i lack of sleep, i take 20 minutes dozing off while doing my homework and thus everything would be delayed. Even my dinner is at 9.30 PM going to 10 PM. What do i do before that ? Probably just bathe and take out my homework and stare (:

But at least i'm able to complete them without the stress building up yet. Its good to start off fresh and slowly build up instead of all at once like the first and second week. That was fucking hell. .__. but tomorrow i'm going to continue learning Electrolysis ! Its so complicated for now ): And i haven't studied for Biology test on Thursday about the eye .__. AQUEOUS HUMOUR BABEHH ! I like the cornea. Hard ballz. :D And i haven't done my workbook either. But i'm looking forward to CO on wednesday because i get to see all my lovely people and i can laugh happily with them and joke around and just relax (: I love fridays too because its no homework day :D But i'm going to step down too with all the other Secondary 4 kids. T-T I really cannot bear stepping down. I'll be crying and bawling on theday that we step down ): Because i miss TBY so much. 6 people group.

Sherlyn, Mun Pin, Zong You , Alison , Grace and me. The love manz. How we camwhore and just enjoy life is definitely something to miss.

I don't want to leave yet i do yaknow ? The sucky feelings ): I'll definitely miss bekah too ): And Gracia, and cherie and clique ):

For once, imma say i'll miss 4E4'12 . ):

Sighh.. getting real out of topic and its gna be 2 ! I need sleep ;/

GOODNIGHT FOLKS.

peaceout (:

2012-01-29T19:12:00.001+08:00

I really don't. I swear.

2012-01-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

Am i still hoping ?

2012-01-28T02:08:00.000+08:00

2012-01-27T23:45:00.001+08:00

Classic (:

2012-01-27T21:25:00.001+08:00

I'm halfway through. But the thing is that i don't know how i feel now ):

2012-01-26T22:56:00.009+08:00

Can you just tell me that you love me ?

2012-01-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

-TUMBLR (:

2012-01-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR (:

I'm most definitely not late this time :D Welllll, loads of things happened. I've been feeling rather down lately with all the fights and disappointments going on. But what can i do ? All people will tell me is that

This is the part and parcel of life . Accept the fact.

Oh fuck. Give me a break.

2012-01-22T01:48:00.000+08:00

Sighhh.. I love you so.

2012-01-22T00:52:00.001+08:00

Everytime you do that to me, my heart squeezes and my eye turns red .

What am i suppose to do ?

Happy Chinese New Year Eve BTW.

2012-01-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

IM SO SORRY FOR NOT POSTING. ): Update tomorrow if i can since its gna be chinese new year (:

Pray i can pass chemistry .__.

2012-01-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

1. YOU

2012-01-12T22:35:00.002+08:00

Its so infuriating. ):

I'm so watching this because i really need a movie this year. I'll cry through this show.Who's up for it.

2012-01-11T22:22:00.001+08:00

When is it my turn ?

2012-01-10T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so mega fucking cui. I'm suppose to make this like a kinda motivating and happy post but FUCK NO . Secondary 4 is killing me on the second week already with more homework piling up on me

And shoot menses la. Coming and today being the second made me fucking moody . LOL. Looking at all my seniors receiving their results made me feel so anxious for them and i really felt like crying after seeing how well they did.

Holy shit. How am i going to reach there ? I managed to hold everything in and suck it up because i have no fucking reason to cry but only because i feel stressed out. But who doesn't ?

I bet all the secondary 4s will feel it sooner or later. Its just that i feel it faster than most people do. And i ended up bawling in class like some idiot. -.- Honestly ? I promised myself no more crying in school and yet BOOMZ on the second week i've already broken my own promise to myself.

Its dumb. And honestly, now its not the time, but i don't know why the fuck am i thinking about this. It is like taking up my time pondering why and it is making me think so much. I convince myself saying that he doesn't love me that much yaknow. He won't be so devoted as i thought he would be and stuff like that cause i don't wna fall again . DEEP enough to last for 2 years and counting so yeah. I don't want to mislead but yet i'm doing it. I'm trying so hard to let go but yet i hold on like its my dear life i'm betting on. Soon soon.

I will do and get it over and done with so that i can concentrate on my studies. O level chinese. I Have to score my A2 to get my 12 pointers with minimum A2 per subject ? Maybe an A1 to get 11 points. I'm planning to try and get into AJC so whose with me ? Hope i won't be all that lonely ;/

Oh well. I give up on history cause i don't understand the damn sources so imma do it tomorrow with my biology journal which is pure LOL cause i only did 2 chapters which is kinda mega fail so imma do it tomorrow. :D In school of course. And i said sleep before latest 12.30 and what the hell am i doing now . BLOGGING ?!

Sup people, i like blooggggiing.

Anyways

peaceout.

2012-01-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....

2012-01-09T23:23:00.001+08:00

http://naomineo.blogspot.com/

This is practically just what i wanted to say .__.

2012-01-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

2012-01-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

Sup people,
Charlotte has officially survived the first week of school with barely enough energy to continue on for more than 40 weeks. (Please bear with my vulgarities. Needa let it out )

Either ways,
I realised today that Chinese o levels is less that probably like 22 weeks ?
Its so fucking fast.
Also, I have tons of homework to complete in 3 days and to be all handed in on Monday.
HOW EXCITING.

Quarreled with mum today too over a dumb reason.
But as a secondary 4 kid, i do not have much time left to spend with my fellow TBY mates before hell breaks loose and that we have to step down and disappear.
I just want to spend my last CCA orientation day with them and thoroughly enjoy it but mum just knows how to spoil every fucking thing.
I hate it when events clash and i hate it when i have to argue to get what i want.
I'm going to be damn stubborn and attend every TBY outing we have because i wna spend time relaxing with everyone i love there.
Probably gna have lunch with them tomorrow too so i shall try and convince my mum and let me go off early if i can because i really wna be with them.

hmm, i need a new resolution ,
stop quarreling with mum.

Its so epic and horrifying at the same time.
So about studies now. I'm rather satisfied with all the teacher arrangements because i've all the teachers i need and i feel happy with.

English - Mrs Crystal Tan ( Miss Crystal Ling )
Chinese - Mrs Tan Chye I ( Miss Tan Chye I )
E Maths - Mrs See Yan Nee
A maths - Mr Lionel Ang
Chemistry - Mrs Elizabeth Lim (Y)
Biology - Mr Tan Li Chun
Social Studies - Miss Nisha (Y)
History elective - Mr Daniel Chew
Literature - Mdm Jennifer Ng

So yes. Thats the list. My pace mentor would be the awesome Mr Tan (: He is just so mega cute and funny at times.
Such a match with Mrs Tan.
Both of them will hound us during our secondary school life.
And i'm lacking of sleep badly.
My body is mega cui now. Whattheshit. -.-
I feel like my skull is going to crack and my eye is so dry it will crack like during a drought.
I've been sleeping late chionging work like nobody's business
But i think i'll get used to it soon.
When we're secondary 4, its like a miracle to sleep at 10.
Its a fucking luxury .
But i need to sleep like real soon because i have to be at marina by 7.45.
I have to wake up at 6.
5 minutes lesser than a usual school day.

I cannot even rest on Sunday because i have tuition too at like 10 so i have to wake up at 8.30.
Bloody hell. Oh and we shifted classes too .
To the last block with trees covering the window view.
I miss 3E4's old class so much D:

This class gives me an impression like we're in a dark forest.
And Zhonghua really needs to repair their fucking projectors.
If not reading articles or powerpoint slides would be fucking yellow or purple or green or just some damn eccentric colour that ruins everything.
The window seat makes my neck ache too. -.-
Projector is stationed too far to be able to see in a comfortable position so i'm lazy to read whatever the article says.

Either ways lets name out homework shall we so that i have a rough gauge on what i have to do,

- Chinese Newspaper Article reflection.
- Literature worksheets
- Chemistry TYS and Chemistry worksheet
- E Maths holiday homework / Textbook questions
- A Maths textbook questions
- History essay
- Social Studies skills ( Wednesday )
- Biology paper to complete
- English essay on Regret

Also thats not it,
Monday : E Maths test first thing in the damn morning
Tuesday : English diagnostic test

There's a hole in me, and I'm falling deeper and deeper. I've tried numerous times to get out of that hole, but with each attempt, I just get deeper and deeper. I don't know what I should do anymore. People reach out to me, but I don't know how to take their helping hand. I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. I can't get out. I don't know what to do to get rid of this feeling.

Ah screw it.

Peace out.

2012-01-05T22:34:00.001+08:00

Sup people . I'm down with amaths, whole3 chapters of biology to complete and emaths to do so i won't be around till like sat ? (: Unless i'm free tomorrow.

2012-01-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

personally had this made (:

2012-01-04T22:22:00.004+08:00

Hey kids.

Wonder how the first day of school is like ?

HELL.

I'm practically lacking of sleep already and so much drama is happening. Cannot absorb it at all. Either ways i miss 2011 alot but i'm glad to have all my friends with me (:

2012-01-01T15:12:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

well well well. 2011 has been a great year for me though i lost several friends, i still gained some and i most definitely feel proud of having such wonderful friends beside me cheering me on (: soooo lets rewind a little shall we ? (:

Taking the time to reflect is indeed tiring but i still treasure everything i went through that made me stronger. (:

2011-12-30T03:40:00.002+08:00

Yo people. I'm blogging at 3.40 in the fucking morning. WTS. -.-

But, i only have one thing to say,

My emotions are fucked up badly.

I don't know what to do to save them anymore.
What am i suppose to do .

I feel like i'm suffocating so badly.
It hurts so much.
But this is not the place to let it out.
Its too open a place to let all my feelings out.
Nothing is all that important now isn't it ?
Homework is the one that i should prioritize
But why ain't i doing that.
What the fuck am i doing with my life ?

Nostalgic eh ? I know. I'm feeling it. The pain.

I LOVE TBY (:

2011-12-28T01:00:00.001+08:00

Hey kiddies (: had TBY gathering today at alison's house (: had a blast ! It was both fun and exciting. Just miss everyone now ):

It was saddening that many people didn't turn up for it but with the 11 people we have , it was still awesome ! (: all the lame jokes flying everywhere with laughter sounding from every corner of the house (: it feels so heart warming (: awesome feeling i felt.

So i shall elaborate more on my awesome day (; hehe. Enjoyable. OH YEAH. SINCE I'M BLOGGING THROUGH MY PHONE ITS GNA BE HARD TO POST PICTURES SO IMMA JUST LEAVE THEM AT THE BOTTEM (: ALISON ONE IS GNA COME IN LATER WITH BELINDA'S (:

SOOOO ~
I woke up at 9.30 to the shouting of my awesome maid. She banged the door open and shouted that it was 10 already so i got a shock and jumped up to my dismay that it was only 9.30 ): i needed sleep. I slept at 5.30 due to various reasons. )): double sad. Then i started to wash up and all but i ended up falling asleep again on my bed after everything. So i woke up late when sherlyn texted me and then i chionged to the toilet to change my pants and all :X hehe. Sek thought he would be late but he reached at 11. LOL. which is the correct meeting time because we had to buy stuff to bbq. (: so yeah. I left the house at 11.10 and then i took 43 with the asshole bus driver who pissed me off real bad :@ anyways. Went to buy polaroid films ! (:

Then i went up around 11.30 where sherlyn reached too and we went shopping in NTUC. Kinda throw face cause we were high and kinda loud. LOL. Sherlyn laaaa ~ hehe. Ah lian max. Anyways so we bough sausages, marshmallow, some drinks, satay sticks, more sausages, cucumber and some other stuff that i cannot remember ._. Bad memory. OH WE BOUGHT CAKE MIXTURE (: wanted to bake cake instead of making jelly

SO

we paid and left for the interchange and stopping to buy starbucks for sek. Lame jokes flying everywhere. ._. hehe. But thats what i love about TBY (: anyways then took 103 at 12.33 to my house bus stop because i didn't know how to proceed to alison's house from her bus stop :X WHOOOPS. but at least let them see my house (: so we walked past my house and they didn't believe it was till i called my dog. LOl then they SERIOUSLY ? Then i ya (: heheheh.

Had an epic walk talking and laughing as usual and we walked past many beautiful houses ! Jealous ): but oh well i shall buy one in the future ! ;D then we finally reached alison's house ! :D was happy.

Then we ate lunch which was Fried rice and mushroom soup (: couldn't finish the soup but it was untouched so i left it for her brother and cousin (: hehe. Then we slacked around and headed upstairs to her room (: i've been there so frequently manz. Hahah. Anyways, so i decided to finish off my cards which was sek and alison's. Had a hard time cause i was distracted badly ): first by sherlyn and sek watching A song to remember cause she didn't watch. So ya. Then sek playing poker. Then the mac being used as a camera. Hahaha. We spammed like hell. Camwhore max (: hehe. Only with TBY. (: exclusive.

Haha. We spammed alot and i had unglams ): it was damn funny though. Hahahaha. Then sek joined in after we squeezed on the floor for awhile and the we were on the floor doing a vlog. LOL. A FAIL ONE. AHAHAH. wanted to be like nice nice can post on blog but we ended up being crazy so its censored (; bet the people in it agrees. Ahahah. Only in alison's com and will remain there as a secret video. ( videos actually (: ) hehe.

Then grace arrived with Bonnie and christabel so we got to work. Sherlyn and i went to get the cake done with bonnie as a spectator then heading to cut fruits with alison and grace. Hahah. The cake mixing was mega sick but just darn cool (: hehe. I was intimidated like crap with bonnie by the way sherlyn stirred it but it turned out great (:

Haha. Then grace, bonnie and alison went to cut fruits while the cake was baking and i went to play cards (: kinda bad hand for many rounds ._. pissed. Cause i couldn't win ): ended up shuffling quite a bit. LOL

So after, the setting up of bbq pit happened and the fire started with lim Qian and alison's cousin help (: haha. Thanks manymanymany (: then i took a polaroid with alison :D yay. Haha. Then we opened the sausages and all. Approximately 6.30 ? We started to bbq (:

The fire was strong and hard to control. Alison's aunt was funny but demanding. Food wasn't cooked and all but i was our fault. A little too rushed cause we were hungry too. ( talking about it. I'm hungry ): )

Then we bbq-ed the chicken wing first, hard to cook it thoroughly ): it took damn long. Irritated and all. Guess their bbq methods are different from home so i let them do and followed. Hahhaa. Then we did the satay and pork chop. Pork chop rocks ! But i only had two bites T-T depressed. Didn't eat any chicken wing. D:

Then belinda came along and everyone wanted to jio wei bin in but he didn't want to come along so we gave up. (: then her aunt Left and we continued bbq-ing. It was tiring. I like vanilla coke (: hehe. Then we bbq-ed sting ray and sweet potato too !

It was mega delicious. I'm hungry T-T oh well. Then yu xuan came along and camwhoring was what i did and shining light onto the food (;

It drizzle too but we held umbrellas and sheltered the food and those cooking. Ahahaha. It was mega funny and cute cause we were all crowded round the pit and adeline was adding charcoal (: hehe. Smoke was so thick though ): hoho. Then it stopped so we dropped the umbrellas and continued (:

Then yuxuan and jolynn and adeline had a jumping photo session and also like some argument thing that was so funny that i kept laughing. Hahaha. (: sherlyn joined too and i kept laughing. Bad to join such a game. Confirm lose first. (: hahah. Cause its just so exciting and funny (:

OH YEAH. ADELINE WAS IN SHADES SO SHE'S THE RIHANNA REMIX VERSION. HAHAHA. yu xuan is butter girl and the rest are extra :D its just so funny. Glad i have such seniors. We were so lame and funny that i cannot stand it. ( then sit it ) hahahah.

Then we bbq-ed marshmallow had a group photo and im happy that we are family (: haha. Im half bored and sleepy though and i have 3% left to finish off this blog post cause imma charge the phone. Anyways,

Help alison to clean up and everything was just so funny washing dished. HAHAHHA. then i went up to chiong sek card and we left at 10:15 (: i think its kinda early though. LOL.

Then dropped at my bus stop with alison's mum as a driver. THANKYOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH ! (: muacks. Anyways so yeah i waited for the bus with both of them and i went home (:

I scrubbed myself twice and washed my hair twice. But a faint smell of bbq is still there and i'm upset. Hahaha. But whatever i wna sleep already cause its 3.34 am and i have to wake up early tomorrow so enjoy the pictures and goodnight. Muacks (:

Peaceout.

2011-12-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

(:

It's TBY's bbq tomorrow (: Cannot wait for it ! Excited :D I wna get the Polaroid films and share with alison :D YAY. Just love TBY so much ! I'm glad that i will be able to let everything go for one day. hehe and just thoroughly enjoy myself.

Year is ending in approximately 6 days ? Time really flies. People drift and i'm all alone. I feel tired at times because everyone has their own group of friends so i should just move on again. I shouldn't feel stuck and fallen because it won't help with the situation right ? Wishing and hoping is one thing, putting it to action is another. I don't have determination. I don't have the will to push myself forward and just leave it in the past. Its tiring (': I'm not strong willed. But i will try my best. Its for the best anyways.

Anyways, here is a song to end of my short post (:

Peaceout.

2011-12-26T13:58:00.001+08:00

OHWELL. guess i didn't make it in time to wish you all a merry christmas ! D:

but i hope all of you had a realll good time cause i did :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS ☃

2011-12-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

Hey lovely readers (: thanks for being loyal i guess. Though i lost half of my readers ): oh well. Hehe. Anyways. MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE ^^ i just love the christmasy mood (: hehe. PRESENTS ARE PRESENTING THEMSELVES ! So excited because imma be a good girl and go to my cousin's house later and then imma celebrate christmas with my family tomorrow ! BROTHER IS HOME YO ! Hehe.

Also, i've been watching KHR. LOL. SMP made me addicted to it ._. But surprisingly its really interesting so i don't mind recommending it to you to watch !! (: hehe.

I'm like walking around Isetan finding a tumbler for my mum. Hehe. She wants to drink coffee in her office. And now we're shopping for clothes. LOL. Oh well. Hehe.

Anyways , do you'll have any wishes to be fulfilled ? Better get it done by next week because the year is ending ! Don't have any troubles on that day an just tell your loved ones that you love them and please please show your appreciation for them ! (: life ain't all that bad isn't it. Hahahah. :D

We just have to learn to take a step forward and overcome everything in out way. Thats how we move on and thats how we have a whole new beginning right ? :D so i will learn to move on too ! Hopefully its working because i feel like i'm not on the same spot anymore. (: i feel the love rolling in ! Haha.

ANYWAYS ! Hope you'll have a gooooood christmas ahead !! (:

Love you people ! Muacks (:

Peaceout.

2011-12-19T20:51:00.001+08:00

"Text me if you want." means... "I want you to text me."
- Twitter

2011-12-19T19:49:00.001+08:00

2011-12-17T01:38:00.001+08:00

Hey (: long time since i blogged huh ._.

Oh well. Anyways. Its already the 17th ): feeling the jitters now. Thats why i don't feel like sleeping. Actually thats not it. Its that i can't fall asleep D: yes i feel sad because i need to be filled with energy before i can play well and feel more achieved and happy with whatever i'm playing. Forced myself to memorise my score and i succeeded (; so i feel happy.

Headed over to alison's place today (: practiced and cooked cabonara to eat (: hehe. Felt happy with lunch and bubble tea to add on. Hahah. Thanks alison (: then we practiced more. Played with her brother's guitar and learnt the first part of more than words (: i love that song. Really (: heading over to her place again next week i guess. Hahah. Cleared 山歌 and i pray that i can clear all doubts regarding 幽远的歌声 tomorrow. I really pray hard )): and the hope is shown by my first ever crane made !! (: i will give it away someday to someone who needs the hope ! (: Charlotte blessing. Hahahh.

Anyways (: Then took some pictures and edited them. One of them below (: i don't think i should post my photo right. Unless i wna show off my bad tan ): okay maybe i should. HAHAH first photo of unglamness. DON'T GO STEAL MY PHOTO AND THROW DARTS ! ):

Hahah. Its rather blur i think :/ oh well. HAHAH added other random pictures.

Actually i'm blogging because i feel very lonely. Very very very lonely. I don't know what people are thinking anymore and i just don't know how to communicate with them. It hurts to see them in pain but nothing i said is taken to heart so whats the damn point. I feel neglected but i'm paranoid an i don't want to feel like that anymore. I don't want history to repeat anymore. It hurts me so much and i feel so damn upset.

Ahh. I'm dumb. I'm fine. I'm perfectly fine. Nothing can bring me down.

My name is happy and surname is forever so i'm happy forever.

Peace out.

2011-12-11T11:40:00.002+08:00

Hello (: i know i know. i haven't been blogging at all. Well, im sorry D; so i shall update you about my December (:

1) Been having 3 days of full day practice at Xu Lao Shi Music shop and tomorrow is another day to come ;/ Hardcore practices really can kill you and your fingers D: Skin is peeling off badly . I have to score well and get my distinction . I need my new Qin. 1500 ? I have to save up already. Work next year so that i would be able to afford it :D

2 ) I've been getting sand fly bites D: All over my legs. They look damn ugly. :/ Im serious. Also adding on to it. I've been flu-ing quite badly recently. .___. Just lazy to take medicine and sleeping with just the fan on at night can kill me already . Sneezing like hell ):

3 ) CHRISTMAS TREE IS UP IN MY HOUSE (: No picture though . :D Lazy to transfer it to my com :D And i'm in the christmas mood (: PRESENTS ! LALALA.

4 ) I'm gna have my exams like on the 17th ):

5 ) BUT GOING FOR A CO CONCERT AFTER THAT WITH ALISON, BONNIE, CHRISTBEL and meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D

6 ) Then the week after is christmas. Probably having a party ? On the 24th off to cousin house. Then 25th idk own party ? :D

Then school is gna reopen and i haven't purchased any books ):<

2011-12-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

A real boy won't care what the size of your bra is, how large your thighs are, if you have a big butt, and a sign in your belly. A real boy is going to notice your smile, the way you put your hair in the back of your ear when you are nervous, in your smile, the way your lips move when you are talking, in your hysterical way of watching horror movies, in your weird way of running, in your little obsessions, in your exaggerated gestures and in the way you pronounce his name. A real boy is going to love you for what you are, not for your outside.

2011-12-06T23:31:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged in ages. (: Will catch up soon :D

2011-11-26T16:42:00.002+08:00

2011-11-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

HELLO LOVELIES ! :D I'm finally back from Bintan (:

Yes, for me i think that overall everything was great :D I wasn't really picky about stuff but the lessons killed me ;/ like hell man because i had like lack of sleep and totally no breakfast so i got seasick and had very little energy ;/

ANYWAYS :D

DAY 1 :

So well. The original plan was to meet Sek at 6 in the morning to go to NTUC to walk about but i slept at 4.30 AM and woke up at 5.30 AM and i started texting Sherlyn. Then i texted MunPin and asked sherlyn to call him while i bathe cause i was worried that he was still sleeping ! Like seriously. So in the end, he was. He woke up and reached school at 6.40 ? :D HAHA. But either ways, the bus ride was okay (: As usual :D Then boarded the ferry and i totally got seasick _|_A china guy also asked what the Immigration officer was saying and i helped him translate and the officer was damn cute because he wanted to learn how to converse in Chinese. :D

Vomited and totally killed Sherlyn and i'm really thankful that she was there for me during the entire journey because the fucking headache and churning feeling in your stomach and burning feeling in your throat kills everything. Esther Quek had it too. Both of us puked ): And i didn't eat anything so it was worst. So whilst listening to Sek talk about the Tom and Jerry show, i was busy crying and talking to Sherlyn trying to control myself ;/

But when we finally reached, i felt so relieved and happier though i was so shag. Then Sherlyn tried to carry my bag but failed so i just carried it whilst Huang Lao Shi took my qin all the way out ! Felt SUPPPPER bad. But i took it when we were about to go to the Resort so that i could load it on the bus. Then we took the smaller black van :D It was cool and i love the bumpy roads in Bintan ! :D

Then we went to the Resort and left our stuff there because we could only check in at 12 ? And so we went to the reservoir so that we can carry out our games. I totally forgot the games we played but PEDO BEARS ! :D Then we played our unknown games and had lessons and LUNCH ! :D Honestly, i liked the rice. It was so nice. One by one chewing it ^-^omg. But everyone didn't ): So i felt sad. ANYWAYS. Then we played catching :D It was fun, sweated like BALLLLLZXC. And Justin and Jay ( Guides ) briefed us (: both damn BHB . And we played and played and played. And had dinner (: My water had grass .__.

THEN WE CHECKED IN ! (Y) Omg. i love the hotel room ! I wna upload pictures but i'm DAMN lazy. I REPEAT. DAMNNNN LAZY. So i didn't anyways. And i'm damn sensitive to the word can't now so Don't use it please. I'll call you one . (: MUNPIN ALL YOUR FAULT. Anyways, then the beds are SOOOO comfy. So me and Sherlyn pushed the beds together and pushed the table to the side with the phone. _|_ noisy. So she bathed first and then i bathed and we headed down for practice. I kept screwing up cause i didn't practice all these songs beforehand so i died. But heng MunPin learned the Ju Hua Tai with me :D Saved me quite a little (: And then we went over to their room to play cards. Knock out system with Lok LiXin and YinTon and Esther Seet whom left after awhile. I watched tv whilst they played and took over when someone lost (:

Then played till probably 11.30 Bintan time which is 12.30 Singapore time. :D Logged in to wifi and played around awhile and then headed back to our room. ONLY TO REALISE THAT WE COULDN'T OPEN OUR FUCKING DOOR. so we headed back down to the guys room ( SPEEEEEEDY ) and shrieking and then forced MunPin to carry our qin back up and help us open the door :X And he could do it in one try _|_ Damn dulan. LOL. Then we slept at 12:15 only to get disrupted MILLIONS of times in the middle of the night. First is Munpin, then is Annabel and Esther and then at 3+ MunPin again and at 5.30 Munpin's wakeup call for us. :X Sherlyn kicked me up everytime to answer the phone. LOL then she kicked me to off the alarm too ):

DAY 2 :

Either ways, i woke up and went to bathe while she pee-ed. Yes we did it open door only that i was behind the damn curtain and i screamed when she almost saw me. LOL. Damn funny ;D Then ZongYou and MunPin came up to our room to meet us before heading for Breakfast which was buffet ! (Y) Omg the love for the omelets. :D And the freaking orange juice :D And everything else. OMG. HAHAHA. then we went trekking.

BEST EXPERIENCE EVER. LOL we were high on the way there for 1hour in the big bus where we were at the back and making HELL load of noise and just playing music. Translating english music to chinese and chinese to english :D Then we went down and was so excited . I was the third last. MunPin last with Zongyou next and me and annabel and so on so forth after going up the muddy path due to the damn rain . Zong you slipped in the "stream" and his shoe got wet first :D Then as we slowly proceeded both guys slipped and then pulled me along. LOL but i grabbed trees and i didn't have much balance too. ANNABEL DAMN STABLE LA _|_ Anyways, i lost my footing once or twice and wanted to fall already but Zongyou held me in place. (Y) HENG man. Then MunPin kept slipping down and ZongYou fell alot too. I kept slipping but they held me there :D So niase ! Causing themselves to fall anyways. ;/

LOADS OF ANTS THERE. INCREASED MY DAMN FEAR OF ANTS. I KEPT JUMPING UP AND DOWN MAN. Spiders were everywhere with grasshoppers and MOSQUITOES ! Worst assholes on the entire Earth. :/ Then i loved the rope part cause mostly everyone died there and i slipped down once but didn't fall cause zongyou supported me from my bag and i pulled annabel :X OPPS ! AHHAHAH. then we went up and i scraped my knee against a log ): Damn pain though i have a dinosaur plaster on it now ! ( THANKS QUEK ! :D ) Then i branch slapped munpin a few times and it was exciting. I wanted to help him to clear it away but i had to walk for him to walk so in the end i just let it go after pulling it to the max and it hit his face and he shouted in pain .__. TEEEHEEE. either ways, i got karma and almost fell again and got supported again and Sherlyn had her DAMN lame jokes flying around.

SUPER GRIP PEN. SERIOUSLY ?!

Then we went up and reached :D and then before we went down , it looked like it was about to rain so we had our raincoats on only to remove them halfway down and i was sliding like crap. DAMN SCARY YET FUN. And zongyou had to grip me damn tight when i lost balance .__. Seriously DAMNNNN dangerous. But THERE WAS A BEAUTIFUL WATERFALL WHERE I WASHED MY SHOES IN BRIEFLY AND WASHED MY HANDS. damn cooling and nice (: Then walked a bit more before zongyou actually abandoned me and MP and Miss Ng. ALL ALONE ! ): Then MP pushed me but fell instead :D KARMA . HAHAHA. then yeap went down the hill with like 1 hour and 1/2. Then went to the orphanage after that. During the one hour bus ride, it was slightly drizzling so the weather was good to sleep. (: Zongyou slept. Then me then MP then sherlyn.

Slept all the way and the lunchbox dropped on Zongyou as he slept and i helped him pick it up. Damn funny. He didn't even bother waking up to clear it. SERIOUSLY ?! Then i went back to sleep (:

Performed and I'm so sorry for screwing up D: Stressed out ah . Then the kids were real nice and cute and i felt really sorry for them but oh well ;/ DONATED $5 to buy food for them :D
And then we went bloody high on the way back. Except zongyou .__. PMS ): Then we sang CAOCAO ! :D Lovely song. Best song. Then other good songs too whilst Zong you acted like a dog and everything was falling into HIGH MOOD! :D

ANYWAYS, i think imma leave now because i'm very tired and its 12:10 AM ! ): i need sleep yaknow. SO YES. I shall update tomorrow (: Nights kiddies.

peaceout (:

2011-11-20T15:12:00.001+08:00

Teehee ^-^

Tby rocks! (;

2011-11-18T11:52:00.001+08:00

Hey everybody im currently in co and my tby-ians are making mad man! I totally love them! 😁😜 why they so cute and funnnnny hehe grace, alison, munpin, zongyou, (sherlyn went to some flooded country) and ME!!!! Haha we all so cute siak! Hehe okay blog later! (;

2011-11-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

TAURUS WOMAN: She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that ” We’re better off breaking up”.

She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for “Happiness”.

2011-11-16T20:08:00.001+08:00

Hai kiddies. Been wasting my time away for two days already. Too lazy to start my homework and just too lazy to move. I brought my specs for repair so i'm like a blind bat for two days in the night and i'll remain as one.

Who'll shine the light and guide me through this foggy night ?

2011-11-15T00:42:00.001+08:00

2011-11-15T00:40:00.001+08:00

PANG ! I'm gna miss you max ): I THINK I'VE GOTTEN TO AN EXTENT WHERE I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU ):

怎么办! But i still have the remaining 4 to pei me through Friday. I pray that the news ain't so bad so that i would be able to take it and so would you (: oh and i better remember to print your form and passport photocopy ~ heh. Either ways, i'm gna miss you like hell so you better do as well and whatsapp us frequently kay !

Since we have like a new chat group :D spam me with notifications only >< but oh well, blame me for loving you idiots too much (:

I laughed alot today, got serious several times and felt tired for the rest of the long night that kills me. Heh ): but oh well, at least i have two weeeetarded friends that are entertaining me (: and also i heard that Sek Pin Pin is watching 2359 ! Pray that you get scared cause i did. Like _|_. I kept screaming btw. Thats why i fail at watching horror movies.

Moving on, PANG YOU BETTER STAY IN CONTACT WITH US ! (: love you ttn ! (:

Peaceout.

2011-11-13T19:19:00.001+08:00

CO tomorrow (:

2011-11-13T00:06:00.005+08:00

Heh. The awesome-ness in TBY has surpassed my expectations (:

Open house was okay today. The crowd was rather mild but it was just a slacky day ~ I was looking through all my photos and i saw all these :D I love CO.

Yes Sherlyn, get molested upside down. But two pictures really caught my attention.
Both are making the same faces but Sherlyn looks FREAKIING epic :D Heh. My butt still hurts. ): Thanks alot for laughing !

Either ways, whatever changes there may be, we'll stand strong as one and will end as one (:

peaceout.

2011-11-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

Fishing joy days (:

Honestly (: I love TBY to the max. :D

This is my usual group (: How we play together, camwhore, spam and laugh at each other. Beautiful memories.I'm really thankful for having them in my life (: And one of the main reasons why i'm so happy to be in TBY.

Well, i think i can be more carefree and happy. Laughing it all out with all the wheel-chair bounded kids that really needs some help ( P.S. Sherlyn and MunPin. I can collect the coke can thing for you :D ) All of them knows how to make me laugh, and really try things i never did before ( I climbed into the classroom. SHHHH ) Its a real experience :D And also doing things that i never thought that i would do.

Love their presence in my life. :D Every single one of them . :D How we influence each other to play games and just laugh our way through sectionals. (: The heart attack today really made my butt hurt ): ~~I need butt cream .~~ HEH. :D But yes, i'm heading over for the open house tomorrow and many people are going to stare at me cause i'm most probably going to go high. But there isn't any zongyou nor grace ): THEIR LOSS.

ITS GONNA BE CHRISTMAS ! ^-^ ( jingle-bellllll ~ ) Dibo the gift dragon :D

And, i wna make macrons. :D Awesome tasting ones. Probably in December when im done with alllllll my homework (: Which will never come true. If you know my character. LOL reading the previous line would probably have your food stuck up your windpipe and you hyperventilating. LOL HEH. awesome.

Anyways :D I'm looking forward to tomorrow , Bintan camp and CO CAMP! :D

Love ya kids ! :D

peaceout.

2011-11-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

Why are you so nice to me ?

whyy..

2011-11-06T22:46:00.003+08:00

I'm being such an idiot.

Even the one that i thought might be able to save me from drowning further has given up on me . Wishful thinking. Now you can't blame me for having the thought that i'm meant to be single and dumb for life. None of them mean it. By the way they talk, it kills me. So much has been happening for the past 3 days and I'm really tired. Tired of trying and pushing myself so hard.
When would i be able to feel like i'm living in a castle. Seriously. It tears me up inside to see this kind of things happening before me . I'm stupid. I admit.

2011-11-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

2011-11-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

I'll be over you in a flash (: I promise. I'll move on.

2011-11-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

Lyrics:

(Chorus)
If there was a way to create perfect
Make your life feel so damn worth it
I'd Erase the black and blue
There's no way to stop the hurting
But I can rip open those curtains
So you can see what's left in you

(Verse 1)

How am i to get through to you i'm finding myself devising/ ways to diminish the ominous ora above your horizon/
intoxicated with hatred, toxicated by a love thats cosmic/
such a faint complex melody and you provide the harmonic/ Highly unlikely for me to hit the ground lightly/ could someone tell me how far ive fallen pricesly/ cause until today i've been improvising/ detach yourself from these anchors/ that keep pulling you under, wont you allow me to be your savior/ consider this to be your attempt to walk on water so you don't on the surface/ wont remain unchanged, will remain forever imperfect/ you mean everything to me
whether I'm drained, weak, fatigued/ I shall be your radiance your remedy.

(Verse 2)

if there were some way, avoiding superhero clichés/
have yet to exceed my extent/ getting you to see what's left in you is truly my intent/ memorize my lines to the script/
is it that what you seek, isn't quiet discrete, but i need you to look beyond the imperfections/ look beyond how your perceived, even with a crush self-esteem/ there's no getting through to you, you were through me, and you expect me to/ leave you to take on these lions, stranded on some island
No rescue/ this is just the storm before the calm, a middle finger to the devil/ took until now for me to realize/
while god is putting you through your storms, god is putting me through mine/ but if this is how you want to live your life i won't get involved/ but i'm sure as hell ain't about to let you wash your regrets in alcohol/ what pages have yet to be decoded/ deciphered by the writer such a metaphorical poet/ you mean everything to me whether I'm drained, weak, fatigue/ I shall be your radiance your remedy.

(Chorus)

If there was a way to create perfect
Make your life feel so damn worth it
I'd Erase the black and blue
There's no way to stop the hurting
But I can rip open those curtains
So you can see what's left in you
It's just the storm before the calm
the storm before the calm
the storm before the calm
Its just the storm before the

(Bridge)
i wish you could see the light
wish you could see the light
wish you could see the light
on the other side of you
the light i see through you

2011-11-03T15:22:00.001+08:00

Song: stranger
lyrics:

Turn around,
Turn around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection.
Now I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection.

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broken, abandoned; you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

I'm confident,
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you.
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And any chance what we turn into
I was hoping that you could see

Take a look at me so you can see...

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broken, abandoned; you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are...

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs
To make you comprehend how beautiful you are.
I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breath
To make you understand how beautiful you are.
Understand how beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broken, abandoned; you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You call me a stranger...
You say I'm a danger...
You call me a stranger...

2011-11-03T14:46:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of feeling that way all the time. It hurts.

Loveable huh ?

2011-11-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

2 Minutes late in addressing this but OHWELL ! (:

Pray for Biology S.P.A manz ):

2011-10-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

Falling Lyrics:

And the conversation was right
underneath the shade of moonlight
you were standing there, with sun-touched hair
and a dress the color white

like an aeroplane I took flight
feel in love with you that first night
cause you danced with me
and I could see that there was more to life

I'm falling in love with you

Just before the strike of midnight
you said this could be the good life
then you said goodbye
hope that I get to see you soon

then I walked for several miles
couldn't rid me of my smile
cause you found me and I found you
in this lovely month of June

I'm falling in love with you

Will you catch me
because lately
you're a dream come true

Say you love me
you are lovely
do you feel it too?

I'm falling in love with you

2011-10-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hello people (: Its been long since i've actually blogged a normal post huh ? ;/ Well, i've been lazy and feeling rather down lately thats why. But i think i'm slightly better so i shall just sum up what happened at Escape for Halloween on Friday :D

Mmm it was fun but the queues were so long that we waited for approximately 1 and 1/2 hours for the bloody go-kart ): Either ways. I met up with Adeline who was having cup noodles as her lunch. Then met up with Clare And XinYi who went to puke .___. LOLOLOL. Then, we went to pizza hut to watch both of them eat and also the pizzas took damn long that we complained 3 times. LOL CLARE ASKED IF THE TOBASCO SAUCE WAS FREE . :D AHAHA. Then we met up with the E5 people to watch In Time :D Me, Adeline and Clare sat on a separate row because we were late in asking them to buy our tickets ;/ But oh well . Then i was in the middle.

Clare and Adeline both took turns lying on me during the movie . AHAH. But it was a good show. The mother of Justin Timberlake was FREAKING hot. I MEAN MEGA EXTREMELY HOT :D Sexy la. Sad that she died ))): I was totally shocked man. -GASP- The entire show was good :D Then after the show, YongXin, Xuan Li, Nicholas and Xiaowei wanted to go cycling. So since we were all headed towards Pasir Ris, we decided to go together and cycle before going to the event since XinYi had piano (:

Then we went on a short journey to search for bicycle rent shops but to no avail as it was closed ): Depressed max . Then we ended up walking back and playing games , talking . Then we went in around 8.15 ? It was cool :D The haunted house made me scream like hell. Nicholas was like next to me and cherie was grabbing my hand with a shrieking Clare in front . It was funny :D I screamed quite a bit. ;/

Then moved on to the dark maze which really blinded me badly due to the flickering light. :X I was one of the few who were infront now. And i still screamed quite a few times due to this guy inside with a mask who kept scaring me. Like seriously ?! Yes, im quite scared of this kinda thing :X We made it out anyways. :D

Then made our way to buy drinks and queue up for the Family Coaster and XinYi arrived :D Sat on the ride and practically screamed for fun :D It was damn cooling and awesome ^^ Then we went to queue for the Go-Kart. Only to leave the guys because we wanted to go to the haunted house again. So i went with XinYi, Adeline and Xiaowei. But holy crap. I was still scared of the real humans scaring you inside so i really couldn't move and XinYi screamed even louder than me and it made me laugh and scream at the same time. There was one staff who wore a mask and i couldn't see his facial expression so i didn't know if he was going to scare me so me and XinYi huddled in one corner and asked the next group to move and the guy scared them and thus we ran away :D

It was freaking fun :D then we made our way back to the queue and we played Heart attack and some childhood games only Cherie and Clare had to leave ): Sad. Either ways, we queued for a long period of time and almost made it when Xiao Wei , YongXin and XinYi had to leave ): Even sadder. And thus, left the 4 of us, Nicholas, Xuan Li , Adeline and Me. :D We went on the go- kart for the first time except for Nicholas. Xuan Li was the first to go but we all overtook him twice because he was stepping on the brakes on the way up the slope. Damn funny and epic :D We completed 3 rounds and he completed one round :D

Then hitched a ride from his dad and he sent me to my bus-stop ! :D THANKYOU ! :DD

That practically sums up my day ! :D And i have like SSP tomorrow early in the morning before booster program): S.P.A is coming up so there's like no choice . Anyways, i better go now (:

Peaceout

2011-10-29T11:39:00.001+08:00

2011-10-27T22:56:00.001+08:00

I keep thinking if there is something wrong with us, or its just me.

2011-10-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

I wish i wasn't such an idiot.

2011-10-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

I feel so heartbroken. Not sad. No tears coming. Just that physical ache that keeps me awake at night. That heart-wrenching feeling that nothing can help subdue it. Honestly, i don't know why i'm feeling like this.

I hate arguing with people i love so much. I just felt pissed off today and i just had to let it out. Probably because i had high expectations of what he might do to at least cheer me up, but i guess it was all foiled in the end huh ? (: Well. I can't blame him, I can only blame myself because i'm downright stupid. He is not obliged to even utter a word to me. I'm taking things the wrong way huh ? Yeah sure. Complacent idiot. I'm so proud of my idiotic self.

2011-10-26T19:59:00.001+08:00

2011-10-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

I think that i'm really lucky this time (:

Hard work does pay off in the end. I am promoted to Secondary 4 express and i don't have to drop any of my sciences ! I'm going to study hard for my tests next year and make sure that i score because i've no believe in myself and also live up to the school's standard or i'll get kicked in the ass. (:

Either ways, i wasn't feeling happy yesterday. A little upset of some things but it wasn't anybody's fault. It was just me. All just me. So i guess i'll just take a short break tomorrow before chionging again. Have to finish loads of homework which is due on Thursday ! Next week will be a killer.

Oh well, i can catch up on sleep after i die. (:

Peaceout.

2011-10-25T01:28:00.001+08:00

I think post-exams are not post-exams .

2011-10-23T15:12:00.002+08:00

2011-10-23T14:55:00.001+08:00

I hope that i'll always be there for you and you would do the same (:

2011-10-23T00:42:00.001+08:00

And i seriously don't understand why guys like to stay up with you . Keeping me company because you know that girls hate being alone ? I don't know. But thanks anyways. I appreciate it . (:

2011-10-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

HELLO ! Yes. I'm into blogging recently. Don't ask me why like seriously because i honestly have no idea myself (: And i'm planning to go to Escape next Friday for the Halloween event ! OMG :D I'm sooo excited . Hope it would proceed as planned with the girls :D

I'm into English songs again recently (: K-pop is just like history i guess.

And did i tell you guys. I love tumblr like seriously ! :D You'll never get lonely there . The posts there really makes you laugh and laugh (: it rocks ;D OH and the pictures of foods there are really good and makes you hungry instantly . JEALOUS MAX ): I want starbucks too.

I've xiao ke tomorrow but i haven't practiced at all. I'm screwed.

2011-10-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

I . Love. Macaroons. :D

2011-10-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

2011-10-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

┏(-_-)┛┗(-_- )┓┗(-_-)┛┏(-_-)┓

MOVES LIKE JAGGER !

2011-10-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

2011-10-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i just love TBY so much (:

I just love the people there. With the usual group , Sherlyn , Mun Pin, Zong You. The really cool people who are always there to make you laugh or you to laugh at. LOL . i don't know. but i like being with them. Make you feel happy, enlightened. It rocks yaknow. :D

2011-10-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

I just hate that feeling i always get when i blog .

Its not like i hate blogging. Its the emotional feeling that hits me badly . I feel like pouring my heart out but its like an empty glass with nothing to pour.

I really want to confide in someone. But i know that nobody can be trusted (: Sad truth huh ? But i have never found a reliant person that has never spilled my secrets out before. Whether it was intentional or not, it has already been done . The wound has been inflicted so whats the point of apologising huh ?

I have turned to blogging but i know that it is never private. It'll always be exposed to people . I don't want to show my vulnerable side to the world but sometimes, i really miss M alot. How he used to lend me his shoulders and his big warm hand that once protected me . How he embraced me. The feeling. Its so hard to revive it. Because it would never happen now yaknow.

O levels are coming up next year with just like 70+ days before the year ends . I have no idea why i'm wanting this comforting feeling so badly. It hurts me a whole freaking lot reminiscing about the past. But like the word expresses itself. It is already the past so there is no point in looking back. I should move on because he was the asshole who left me so i have no reason to contemplate about getting back together just to feel that amazing feeling all over again.

I don't want to make the same mistake twice.

Its like a barrier that bounds me . Not letting me out . I am not strong enough to break through yet.

2011-10-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

AND I PASSED EVERYTHING OTHER THAN A MATH.

Yes but i'm fucking disappointed in my humanities. How much effort spent and i flunked all in my SBQ. But all in all, my literature was the best result ! 68% yoooooo ~ I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO FLUNK ! but i didn't (: Passed overall by getting a 58%. i know i know its lousy. But to a person who got 51.4% for her mid-years. THIS IS A FUCKING BIG IMPROVEMENT ! :D YES. i got 25 for my L1R5. i know i know. Lousy again. BUT I IMPROVED BY 5 POINTS OKAY ! I'm so proud of myself and yes i know i am thick-skinned but i think i deserve this :D

Either ways. I'm looking forward to Bintan with CO people ! :D I think its gna be fun. CO CAMP TOO ! :D And yes, mugging is necessary for the next few weeks. ;/ SPA is coming up anyways. And i need to buck up for A math. ):

ANYWAYS. OMG BIEBER'S NEW SONG. I'm no fangirl of his but i think he has a REAL sexy voice now ! :D BUT, he needs to check out the seasons. ITS NOT CHRISTMAS.

2011-10-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

I flunked a math.

2011-10-17T22:39:00.001+08:00

“ Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. And intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.”

—	Janet Fitch

2011-10-17T18:40:00.002+08:00

HELLO KIDS :D

Here are some people that i recommend you to listen and support in X-Factor ! :D Lovely people.

The Ansers :D ( White Dude is mad hot )

Honestly. I think that she's the best :D

Yeah. I think these two are my tops ! :D

Anyways. I'm like major scared now ): Its results tomorrow !

2011-10-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

I need help. I'm confused.

Hey kids (: I've been officially slacking since exams ended on Friday. Mmhmm. Like seriously sleeping for the whole day yesterday being awake for less than 10 hours :D Catching up on my sleep that i've lacked for 5 days. Yes . My well-deserved sleep (: Teehee. Woke up early today to have porridge at alexander too :D

Then moved on to get Hair Serum. Weird products all over my hair. Mmm. Expensive. (: That was my well-bargained grab for the weekend . (: I'm officially preparing myself for results on Tuesday. Yes, the hard cold truth of me being retained. Heh. I do have that slight glimpse of hope that i wouldn't . But its a little hard to achieve huh ? Imma failure (: But yes.

I'm going to enjoy my last day as a happy girl. And i'm going to go and buy stuff and make myself happy (: Thats all that i need don't I ? Since nobody is there for me . I've accepted that and learned to be a little self-reliant.

Peaceout.

2011-10-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

Mmm i'm trying to cool myself down for the worst. .____.

2011-10-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

YEAH KIDS. TRY RAPPING THIS LIKE A BOSS CAUSE I CAN (Y)

2011-10-14T19:12:00.002+08:00

2011-10-13T02:37:00.002+08:00

Seriously . Its like JRA goodness ! :DDDDDDDDD

2011-10-13T02:21:00.004+08:00

Seriously. Its not like i'm superhuman and i don't need comforting . :/
I've feelings for goodness sake.
Mehh. Sometimes all i need is just you by my side you know .
Don't need comforting words, don't need to fret about anything.
Because your presence means so much to me.
Just lend me your shoulder to lean on and a hug to spare.

Thats all i need.

P.S. I think i'm going to fail biology for once in this entire year and retain in Secondary 3. I tried to salvage the situation . I really did study. Going to rush through the smaller topics tomorrow and tie up the loose ends of Homeostasis and I'll pray hard. REALLY pray hard.

It's going to be a long day with Literature next.

2011-10-12T17:47:00.002+08:00

I need starbucks to survive.

Two content heavy days to come ):
Biology tomorrow and lit on friday .
Totally not prepared. D;

2011-10-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

I'm too sensitive ):

2011-10-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

The heart-wrenching truth.

2011-10-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

Holding hands might just be the cutest thing ever. It’s such an intimate gesture, yet innocent at the same time. When you feel their hand touching the palm of yours it’s like the entire world is at your fingertips at that moment. And even better, the first time two people ever hold hands, is precious. When the person nudges at your hand and eventually slides their fingers interlocking with yours and you feel your cheeks getting warm, turning a shade of rosy pink and your heart pounding like drums. When they grasp on so tight like it would be impossible to let you go. How their hand just seems to fit right into yours as if it was meant to be that way. So beautiful and satisfying with a rush of different emotions. And just with the knowledge that your hands are linked together makes your hearts even fonder and you can literally feel how close you are to each other.

2011-10-07T01:56:00.000+08:00

I love monsters :3

2011-10-06T01:13:00.003+08:00

You didn't .

I, myself, am freaking tired. There is morning SSP tomorrow. Mr Chong talked to me today about my "contract" with the school.

I'm damn worried.

What if i fail. I really don't want to fail and retain. I'm doing my very best to overcome this entire year. I'm improving in Chemistry and i'm really happy . (: I'm slightly better in A Maths now . E maths is still .___. but I can improve.Biology needs time. History needs time. Literature needs more time. I need to hit at least A2 ! To get a better L1R5. .__. I need to score ):

I fail at chinese. Tyco Band 1. My compos and emails all suck.

English is failing me badly. I suck at compos now (': interesting huh ? Hope i can score well for Oral (: MR GIN TOH. LET ME HAVE MY 80 marks please .

I'm doing chinese comprehension now. I can totally fall asleep but i'm keeping myself awake . I have to brace myself to really fight the war on saturday and sunday . 3 full hours of a maths and e maths on both days. I can't go for my Ruan lessons anymore. Takes up too much time. I think i have to do history too . Too much info to intake.

I have to set my biology on track now. Better start spamming papers and workbook without referring to the answers. I can do it.

I guess. Its hard to predict what will happen but effort is required and i will show it . The effort i will put in for this. You will never imagine.

So i will just pray for now. (:

Peaceout.

2011-10-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

Strained relationship.

Do you know what its like to be lonely? To be truly, deeply lonely? I don't mean alone. I mean standing in a room full of people you are supposed to love and feeling no connection. Feeling emptiness where empathy should be. Loneliness is gut-wrenching. It is waiting for a message you won't recieve, a phone that will not ring, invitations that won't be given. It is finding connection to a book, a tree, a kitten, but not a human. It is vulnerability and self-loathing, it is the inability to be with anyone but yourself, and hating it. Loneliness is a disease, don't forget that. And sometimes there isn't a cure. Some of us are destined to walk this planet alone.

Thats what i'm feeling everyday.

2011-10-05T00:08:00.001+08:00

I really hate it when i trusted you so much to place my important secrets with you only to let you spill it out and embarrass me.

777th post.

2011-10-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

Misplaced trust.

Its my 777th post !

2011-10-03T18:46:00.001+08:00

So please stop saying that you aren't important because you are to me (: